Friday, February 22, 2008

Now I get it...

Now I get it. I totally get it. I know what it means to say you "feel as big as a house" and you're tired of pregnancy and when will this baby EVER come out of me??? I know what women mean when they say that your legs are swollen and your fingers look like sausages! I know what the sleepless nights and the backaches and the cravings for chocolate ice cream EVERY DAY that you are trying to avoid because you don't want to deliver a 10lb baby is like. I know how scary it is to think about the fact that even though you are whining about this baby being in you the thought that eventually it HAS to come out of you and you have NO choice in the matter is so much more disturbing! I know what it feels like to wonder if you need a seatbelt extender on the airplane and to be told to put your seatbelt in the car "under your belly" when you are wearing a thick wool jacket and there really is no way to find "under your belly" let alone get the belt under there. I now know that going to the bathroom 3 times a night is not something that only crazy people do and waking up with an ache somewhere new is almost a game that you can play at this point. I know what it's like to feel like an old lady because by the time you reach the top of your stairs you are totally winded and just want to sit down but then when you go to sit down you realize you really aren't comfortable there so you go to lay in your bed at 6:00 in the evening! I know what it feels like to not be able to tie your shoes and not be able to see your toes.

And yet somehow when I go to bed at night I still sit and wait to feel the baby move even though I have felt her do it a hundred times before. And I find myself singing songs and rocking in the glider in the baby's room just because. And I even start to cry at those sappy songs on the radio and picture Troy dancing with her when she's 3 or something silly like that. I even start to get sad that the baby is growing too fast already when I look at clothes that won't fit her anymore next year. I don't even know this little person in my belly and yet I love her so much. Now I get it. I totally get it.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Less than 6 weeks

I am sorry that I don't have any pictures but I wanted to put up a little post just so you didn't think I forgot about you. Things have been crazy around her the last two weeks! I have been sick, Troy has been sick, we both got over our sicknesses, mine came back and besides that I had a baby shower and celebrated my 24th birthday. What an insane time in our lives! My coworkers threw me an absolutely beautiful shower with tons of gifts, an awesome cake, great food, and such a nice time with everyone. I felt so overwhelmed because I knew they threw showers but I had no idea the extent that they went to. Also, since i have only been working there since late October I felt somewhat unworthy of all of the fuss. I suppose that working at a daycare center does lend itself to having people around that enjoy babies and showers! It was such a great time and I just continue to feel so blessed that I was led to that job through all of the changes that took place last fall.

My birthday was this past weekend and I was thoroughly spoiled once again by my amazing husband Troy. He took me out for an awesome dinner at a restaurant in downtown Libertyville called the Tavern where he had a cake delivered from the bakery across the street and gave me some great smelling perfume, a BEAUTIFUL diamond ring and a couple of other sentimentel gifts. I couldn't have asked for more. On Saturday we went out to grab a yummy dinner with my family and back to my parent's house for some awesome cake and ice cream. I got some great presents there too. I couldn't have enjoyed me weekend more!

The baby is still kicking up a storm. I am starting to get the "you look like you're going to pop" comments, which I can't argue with. Every once in a while Troy looks at me and is startled by how huge my baby "bump" is getting. This baby is about 18 inches long by now and over five pounds so I guess I shouldn't be surprised by my increasing belly! I am enjoying the pregnancy but am really getting ready for this little kiddo to come out of me! I am getting nervous though about the whole labor and delivery deal. I have been reading up and sometimes I am more nervous after I read about it than I was before. It's also getting weird because I am to the point where I could go into labor at any time so I feel like I need to get prepared with a bag to bring to the hospital and a plan for afterwards. Oh and another thing, names! How do you name a baby? They are going to carry this name with them for the rest of their lives! Ahhh! I am getting a little stressed about it and we have a great girls name with a good backup and our boy's name is good too but it's still a hard decision. I guess we'll figure it out, right? Well, until next time, go out and enjoy a McDonald's coke for me - my one craving that I will not let myself indulge in until after March!