She's still here

It's weird. It's like "this was fun, see you next time" and she's supposed to go home. But she IS home. We are her home! It's so crazy because you just feel like you can't be old enough and mature enough (well, that's questionable) to be raising your own kid and there she is every morning when you wake up. She doesn't ever leave. It's finally sunk in that she is ours and she's not going anywhere! I can't believe how big Aubrey is growing too. I feel like she is a totally different baby then the one that was born 4 weeks ago. She is already growing out of some of her outfits which is crazy because when we first brought her home she couldn't even fit into anything so much so that the grandparents had to go out and buy her stuff! She is sleeping pretty well at night (with exception to last night which was a disaster - we'll just skip talking about that) eating about every 3 hours and actually sleeping in between. She still grunts all night long but I have learned to tune that out mostly. She has gone out for her first girls lunch, been shopping many times with me and we have even gone on walks outside now that it's getting nice! I am not feeling cooped up anymore which is nice and I think it's good for her to get used to being out since in a few weeks she will be out a lot when I return to work. I have decided to take a longer maternity leave and will not be heading back until sometime in June. Life with this little baby is crazy but who can resist a face like that?

Happy Birthday Aubrey!

I can't believe that my baby girl is already 2 weeks old! I remember 2 weeks ago from right now I was being wheeled into the delivery room and was so nervous and excited! Today my baby girl is 14 days old and has already grown so much! I am noticing that some of her tiny outfits are already getting too small on her. It is so sad watching her outgrow things already but it is so nice to see her getting bigger and stronger every day. She is also doing so well with eating and is getting on a somewhat regular schedule. She eats pretty much every 2 1/2 to 3 hours during the day and during the night she is doing about the same except for sometimes when she decides to stay awake all night (which was the case last night). I am hoping that she will get her days and nights switched around pretty soon here. I try to keep her up during the day but she is impossible to wake when she is sleepy. I am going to give her a bath tonight so that will make her get up and hopefully Troy will play with her enough to get her sleepy during the right times! We're having company this weekend so that will be fun. My Aunt Karin is visiting us so I will have to play fashion show with my little sweetie and get her in some of her cute little outfits finally. Not that her outfits now aren't cute (how can you not think everything is cute on this little tiny body?) but now I get to put on some of her "going out" clothes. Anyway, like I said earlier things are going well but please pray for us that she would get into a sleeping schedule and stop her 2-6 parties that she keeps having. Sorry this post is kind of random but I'm really tired!!! Will post again soon...

10 Days Ago

I can't believe that 10 days ago I was walking around the mall trying to break my water and having light contractions and scared and nervous about having a baby. I can't believe that this little baby that we now call Aubrey was scrunched up inside my belly and I was getting so tired of feeling heavy and huge and just over pregnancy and ready to hold my little baby. It is so crazy to think about all of my mixed emotions and worries and know that through all of that she is here and beautiful and perfect. The love that you have for your baby after she comes out is so amazing. I was told that it is one of the most spiritual experiences you ever have and I couldn't agree more. I have a renewed understanding and belief that there is only one God who could create such a miracle and do it is such an incredible manner. When I was pushing her out my doctor told me at one point to sit up and look down and I watched her as she came out into the world. What an experience. I will never forget that moment. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. Thank you also for your encouragement during pregnancy. I am already realizing that the worry and stress that I thought would be gone after the baby came out and I knew things were ok are only stronger now that she's here and my responsibility. Please continue to pray for her and for us to be good examples and lead her in a life of loving and living for God. What an amazing God we really do have.